Exhausted Mama

Dear Beautiful Blog Readers,

Some days I get tired.  Some days the overwhelming overwhelming-ness of being a mother (to both an adult and littles), a wife, a homemaker, an entrepreneur, a chauffeur, a supportive friend, a farmer, a homeschooler–a Woman of Many Title–is downright exhausting.  Sometimes there are so many things to be done in a single 15-minute period that I am literally flitting from one place to the next, one thought to the next, one Me to the next.  When I really want to do is close my eyes, have complete quiet, shut off my brain, and Just Be.

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For half an hour.  Just be.  Just be KT.

Who has time for that?  I decided to write to you about it, because I have a feeling I am not alone in this.  I see posts that give suggestions such as Make Time For Yourself, Don’t Overschedule, Get Up Earlier To Have Quiet Time (or Go To Bed Later).

Um, I can’t make time.  It is humanly impossible.  Goes against the laws of physics.  I don’t really even get to make my schedule.   These things need done. They are not going to go away if I don’t schedule them into my day.  They will still need done tomorrow, and chances are I’ll only be piling on more for tomorrow if I skip something today.   Also, I already get up between 5:30 and 6:00 every morning and can barely keep my eyes open till 10.  So…

My blog is meant to encourage other moms and dads who are on this journey.  But sometimes I don’t feel encouraging.  Sometimes you don’t want to be encouraged.  Sometimes, we just need to commiserate.  So here’s the thing.

I am having an exhausted week.  That’s honest.  Here’s a pic of my kitchen counter Right Now.  IMG_20150618_145652239_HDRThat’s honest.  I should be doing those dishes, but the truth is I ran out of dish soap this morning and I don’t have the energy (or the hour it would take) to go get more.  I haven’t worked on next year’s curriculum this week.  At All.  I haven’t been able to find the time.  My Littles are having so much fun with their summer science class that we are doing extra work every day, and even though it’s easier than any class we’ve ever done (since I didn’t have to write the class first), it is cutting into my chore, blogging, and business time.  I’ve barely spoken to my best friend this week.  I want to.  I just don’t have time.  I’m too tired to sleep.  I’m too tired to stay awake. You know that feeling, don’t you?

I don’t have any words of encouragement.  Let’s just commiserate.  We are parents and it is exhausting, and that is okay.  Tomorrow will be better.  It always is, isn’t it?  But for today… Let’s just own the exhaustion.  Let ourselves be overwhelmed.  There comes a time when we have to stop the denial.  For an hour, maybe.  Because denial (haha) is often what keeps us living this crazy, wonderful, beautiful life.  I’ll put on my big-girl boots in the morning, I swear.  But today, my friends, I Am Owning It.

I’m tired.  Are you?

Love wins,

KT

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11 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. annamarieasha
    Jun 19, 2015 @ 16:45:07

    Oh goodness. I am just starting this journey and already I have had the “I cannot post that picture because it shows my laundry pile in the background” moment. I am just starting the homeschool but have to work full time and try to take care of yard and house and critters and family. Yea I am tired too lol. I lean on all of the bloggers I have started following here to give me the inspiration and push I need to get through each day. I read and post blogs on my lunches and breaks during work because at 4:30 the title wave comes on!!!!! And we have not even ramped up to the full curriculum in homeschool yet lol. I just know that you and other bloggers feel like just as true friends as the ones I see each week at church so that I look forward to what inspiration everyone’s blog can bring to my day. I will be depending, a lot, on the encouragement from my WordPress friends!!!! lol

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  3. thehomeschoolmomblog
    Jun 19, 2015 @ 07:49:14

    I AM tired, now that you mention it. Of course, that could be because it’s after midnight and I’m still up. It could also be that we spent the day at the pool. 😉 Nah! The truth is, we all get tired. There should be no fear of reproof in owning it.

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  4. Ashley Wornell
    Jun 19, 2015 @ 04:58:27

    Yes.
    Just whined to the husband, then declared that I am going to clean my whole house tomorrow. I am saying “no” to other things until I can walk without fear of foot injury.

    Yes, I’m too tired to sleep tonight, so I’m reading blogs before trying again. How is that for timing?

    So encouraged by knowing I’m not alone. Also, I’m extra motivated now.

    I might even have enough energy to fall asleep…

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  5. adamhaid
    Jun 19, 2015 @ 04:05:38

    I wholeheartedly empathize! YAWN.

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  6. Abby
    Jun 18, 2015 @ 21:18:31

    I’m tired too. I’ll own it with you. Life gets busy sometimes but I’m thankful that we’re all happy and healthy and we just have to keep pushing through. It’s a crazy life but I’m enjoying the ride.

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    • KT Brison
      Jun 19, 2015 @ 10:40:13

      Yes, but I miss your face! You’re right, though-I am also grateful for the ride. Can one be grateful for being exhausted? It’s a mindset–I embrace it!

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